No.No.No. Re-write it for me. Please. So I can outline the scriptures, and tell you exactly where I went wrong. Where I ********' shot your eyes out.
Do you think I'm on a pedestal, or some s**t ?
Because obviously I'm just the cup for the refill !
I didn't even expect anything, more or less from you. Give or take a few-- right ?
Considering the circumstances-- I was just taking a free ride. Just free. Just where I would be the leading hand, nodherenodthere. Maybe think we were on the same level. Which was by no means the case. But did you really care ? Did I ?
Ugh. Don't even bring it up. You don't even know ! You don't even ********' KNOW.
And the last thing, or person, I'd expect to say s**t like she knew was her. But she's all up on your good side, isn't she ?
I bet you ********' fill them up until you can build an army.
I wasn't on your leash b***h get it straight.
And don't come crying to me, because you think I'll say it's okay. Because it's NOT. It will never be like that, so get off your xxxx and walk straight, will ya ? Your embarrassing yourself.
Call me on the phone where your breath was heavy, and your heart was pounding -- Lost for words and I could ********' taste the vulnerability. I was there. And you knew it. Didn't you, you psychotic b***h ? Who's on the leash now.
And all the times you thought you were so great ! If you weren't always sitting on your hands I bet you could actually write something that's not complete s**t. No wonder you have a lack of brain expansion ! It's because your so ******** up that's all you know how to do !
Well I'm sorry. I am so sorrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyy.
I deeply apologize that your an idiot. Please, take that face and shove it where the sun goes.
DONT EVEN LET ME FORGET --- Don't even. Oh please, save your dramatic s**t. You don't even know the first thing about what your even saying !
Where are you talking out of exactly ? Can you tell me that with honesty ?
Or you haven't gotten that far -- you codependent dumbass.
Did you think I was dumb ? That I had NO idea, what was really going on ? Did you think I was OKAY with it ? No. You didn't even ********' consider the idea did you?
No. NO. NO. ******** your apologies !
And why couldn't you really step up to me ? Really do it this time ?
Because you apparently get all ******** over when a f*****t makes hearts and rainbows for you. It's your only happiness~ omg let me get a red carpet !
For the happy b***h so up her own a** she's seeing neverland.
Why don't you share the music with me ? Why don't you sing it with me this time ? So I can watch the words fall of your face. And remember why I stopped believing.
It's over.
Thats it. And when your time comes, I hope you really understand.
I hope you feel it in your stomach-- stab at your throat; and when you speak to the old notions you felt so RIGHT -- you'll know. It'll tear through your soul,
and you'll wait the days and days and days until the agony subdues.
And you'll ********' remember. You'll ********' remember so good.
I promise.
I promise.
I promise.
But out of all of them. I thought I could curl up in a ball, and let you tell me that you really thought all those things. That you thought I was inexplicable.
And you'd tell me that your heart beats my song.
But I'm so ******** up. Don't you agree ?
That you really know it to ?
Didn't you wanna try to fix me ? No...not at all ?
Oh...
okay. I'm sorry I'll come again tomorrow. And tomorrow. And tomorrow. And tomorrow. And ********' tomorrow til I'm down on my knees.
Pleasedon'tdothistome. Please.
I'm done.
I really am.
******** it. I'm sick. I'm tired. I'm so done.
I feel so much better, and it's really working I swear !
So why does your memory keep bringing the pain back ?
One day I'll ********' be so happy and forget that you even exist !
I can lie to myself it's my only self respect so why take it from me.
Please. Don't. Do. This. To. Me.
And in the end-- my heart still beats.
And in the end-- You'll be sorry.
And in the end-- when I ********' earn my place here ----
I SWEAR. It'll be me. And I will be a story you read to your kids . And they'll ********' know my name. For generations.
You won't forget me. You'll never know me. You'll never hold me. You'll never love me.
I swear it'll hurt so bad.
I swear.
I swear.
I swear.
I swear.
 Pain-Killer 4 Dead Angels · Mon Aug 03, 2009 @ 03:03am · 1 Comments |
