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	There's someone else too...
	There's someone else too...


There's another person... Who I don't love. To the point of dislike, at the least... The other person I hate...besides my mother. This person is... myself. There's so many reasons not to like me. I'm not sure if all these reasons have yet added up to hate. And even though there are so many reasons to hate me... I don't know if I do. I don't know if I can. But I do know... That I don't like myself. I don't like this monster. This monster that is me. I'm a monster on the inside. And ugly monster on he inside. And I'm not exactly pretty on the outside. Me? I'm worthless. Useless. I'm a coward. I'm weak. And I suppose I'm a quiter too. I hate it. I hate it all. I hate everything I am. And I can't change it. I'm selfish. I don't have anything to make up for all of this. I'm not talented. Special... I can never help anyone. I wish I could... But I never can I wish I could stop being this terrible ugly person I am inside But I can't. I'm too weak. I have so many amazing people that I love... They are all so talented Special Kind...and amazing... And I know one day they are all going to soar One day I am going to have to fly on my own. I am going to have to leap...and learn to fly by myself. And on that day I know... I am going to fall. Hard. Who knows...I might even die. But I know all my friends....are going to not only fly But soar. And I'll have to watch... Broken from the ground. I suppose that is the price I will have to pay... For being such a monster. For being so terrible. For being such a burden. I don't deserve all the amazing people I love. I don't deserve anything. Life. Happyness. I don't deserve it. But yet I can't stop myself wanting. I can't stop wanting to be happy. I can't stop wanting to live. I can't stop my life. I'm too much of a coward. I wonder if I will ever know... What the hell is worng with me. CHESHIRExCOLORED ANARCHY · Fri Jul 10, 2009 @ 08:03pm · 2 Comments


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	Stop it. now. I don't like what your saying cause all you speak is lies. You are not a monster. you are not a burden. Stop it. You won't die. you won't give up because no matter what I won't let you. I hate what your saying. It pains me to know this is how you think of yourself. I hate it. You are no coward. *You deserve Happiness more than anyone I know.* Stop doing this. Stop writing this bulls* Just. Stop. I've tried to help you so many times. You don't listen because all you do is beat yourself down. Just **** stop. You never talk to me about anything anymore. I love you. I always have. Now stop and think. Do NOT. let your mother or yourself bring you down. Don't ever think like that, You are one of the most talented people I know. You WILL soar. There is nothing wrong with you except your tendency of putting yourself down. Offline X-Prince-Valiant-X** · Community Member · Mon Jul 13, 2009 @ 05:59am


	It's not my mother that makes me think this. I do, only because it's true. And it makes me happy that you care...it does. But still, it's only all true. And I wish it weren't. I wish I didn't upset you, because I just want you and everyone else to be happy. Don't let me bug you. It's just how I see myself. Offline CHESHIRExCOLORED ANARCHY · Community Member · Wed Jul 15, 2009 @ 07:59pm

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