After that day in the office I felt as if a piece of my soul was ripped out. I had empty feelings for things. I mean my new friends are fine. And i have made some changes in my personality as they call it my natural drug for a technical term but what they say is a natural highness. I've been trying to ignore this feeling by using my natural drug of false happiness and joy. I'm not sure i I can hide it anymore.
This morning when I had signed on to gaia there was a message from ashley's cousin. I could recognize the user. I could have been the boy himself but I could have also been ashley. It said, "wooow. everyone was right. x__iiBrokenToyx3 does look better than you. your a noob." I have not change anything this this. By everyone maybe Christine Lim and Erica agreed with her.
I may have to resort to the one thing I could do. Isolate myself from every old friend I use to have and go back to how i use to be. Cold, harsh, quiet, and vile on the inside. The void of dark nothingness will eventually grow bigger.
Should I say sorry to ashley. Or should I just say nothing to her always. This decision is based on everything I have encountered from that day. The results will affect me for my whole life time on earth.
....-A Lone Soul
 littlepandadog · Mon May 04, 2009 @ 09:47pm · 0 Comments |
