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I'm happy now
But later, will I feel down?
I don't want to cry,
But sometimes, its hard not too
The reason of why
Is you.
Or this messed up, ******** up Life
This moment, I'm bothered.
Mabey because of the screams coming from my father
Aimed at me ofcorse.
I did nothing wrong,
But his blame makes me feel remorse.
I can tell, this night is going to be long.
This past hour, Its been pouring rain.
The rain drops falling down my cheeks relentlessly
because theres a raging thunder storm inside me
From all this utter pain.
The rain won't stop, falling continuously
Almost as tho to make up for the long length of time these eyes Stayed dry
I am alone here.
Four walls, colorful posters staring me down
Slowly waiting, always waiting
Watching, ready to witness me when i might Snap
With my last might, I attempt to stay strong.
To ignore the blaring silence, the screaming emptyness
But my tiny shield I have held up slowly creaks
And slightly cracks, My eyes begin to water
Seeing how truely bare is the emptiness through the cracking hole in my Shield
Realizing unwillingly that it is truely lone
With not a soul near or far from me
Not wantingly seeing that I'm immensely lonely
Laughing, Sighing, and Smiling
My heart, a steady repetitive pace
A person, another, another and another are Surrounding me
Eyes glancing, glistening with care free joy
Smiles wider then the oceans plastered on these faces
Random comments and idle chatter
No words we can remember afterward,
But the feeling of happiness is what pricks the intellect
How hard we laughed, how merry we felt
That is what we cherish Subconsciously
Here, Next to me people are physically near;
The ones I dare label "best friends"
 forcing myself 2b social · Sat Apr 25, 2009 @ 08:18am · 1 Comments |
