I have to stop trying to make sure no one is mad at me, but I hate it when people are mad at me. I hate it. I avoid conflict like the plague and I don't like phoning people or places. It just takes so much effort to pick up the damn phone and say hello and I don't like it.
I'm freezing this morning. I was tempted to take a day of school but then I remembered the 3 day handbell workshop. I think I'm going to continue on with the Robin Hood script. It's hilarious and the computer....hell, I don't know. My way of coping when the rest of the world gets pressed flat. My way of forgetting it all. I can't fix everything, and I'm not strong enough to meet it head to head or embrace it most of the time.
I'm sick and tired of not being able to stand up for myself, and not being able to know what to do in social situations. I can't ******** READ people. I can't. I don't know what they're thinking or what they mean, and most of the time if I do ask they won't tell me. Fine then. There's a kind of bliss that comes with ignornce. Leave me there if you must.
 Renee the Rabid Squirrel · Tue Nov 01, 2005 @ 01:27pm · 1 Comments |
