The day before Christmas, the eve of a giving and cheerful holiday. I'm upstairs in my late father's room, on the bed that is next to his, being remiseful of the past.
By this time of year, 2 years ago I would have jumped for joy of getting presents and gifts, staying up late watching movies, hanging up the rest of the little trinkes on the tree, and helping my around the house, finishing tieing the odds and ends. The warm of family would make me feel right into the spirit of Christmas, there would be laughter and kind smiles-it was once a very warm home to be in.
Now, everything has changed. There is no hoilday spirit, no warmth, no presents under the tree-hey, there isn't even a tree up this year! Ha. The irony is so clear, like a diamond surrounded by opals. Currectly at 3:14 PM my mother and brother have now gone out for some last minute shopping. The reason why I'm home alone and not going is because I don't want to go and be trampled by numerous last minute comsumers.
There is really no more warmed anymore than what is needed. My family has drifted to far apart. Or is it just me?
To anyone that knows me, give a call, even hello would be nice. This lonely soul would like that very much.
Happy Holidays and Happy New Years!
 Kawaii_Nequam · Wed Dec 24, 2008 @ 08:19pm · 1 Comments |
