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Why am I here?
I serve no significant for anyone..
I am not one's hero..
No one is influenced by me..
No one truly thinks of me as much as they say..
No one really loves me as much as they say..
I'm not the first person that people call..
I'm not the first option to take to a movie..
I'm the last to be called to hang out with..
I have not been able to change anyone for the good of anything..
I have no purpose..

So why am I alive?
Is there really a higher power?
If so, what is he or she doing to me.
Being the puppet master in my life and pulling all of the strings to their desire?
Putting me through all of these thoughts just for the sake of putting me through hell?
Making me do what they want me to do?
Then when I'm useless..they'll torture another soul?

Is my tortured soul so amusing to everyone that they have to laugh at me?
Must they make me feel so small and insignificant as they do?
Why....
Just....why...........