Nobody reads this journal so I might as well say what is on my mind. V_V
*thinking* Im thinking about school, swimming, and obviously Nate. I have school on Wednesday, and Nate's college starts on Wednesday too. I wish I knew when he would be free so I don't have to ask everyday,"hey you busy on _____ ?" Then here Nate say in a saddish voice,"I don't know." I feel bad everytime I ask so I'm just going to stop asking. I'm free all the time, and when he is free from work, or something his parents make up some bullshit so he can't go anywhere V_V It's not his fault and I don't want him feeling terrible just because his parents won't let him out of the house.
IT'S NOT HIS FAULT <3
Yes I admit I'm going to be sad, but oh well! It happens. I know I can't see him everyday, or even every week. As long as I eventually get to see him! That's all that matters to me. Yeah I will be sad if we make plans, and everything is all set, and then its a NO all of a sudden, but oh well I'll see him eventually. If worse comes to worse I'll ride my bike and visit him during RPG I'll tell him before I leave, but I'm still going to go if I'm desperate (I randomly NEED hugs, its how i work. Sorry if that's to weird for you. Just ignore it).
I love him <3 He is amazing <3
He is one of those boyfriends that you don't find very often. He listens when I ramble on about things that are not really important. He helps me talk about things that I HOLD INSIDE ME. I don't talk about whats on my mind willingly. It takes more than a push, but sometimes I just refuse. I hate that about me. I havent really had anybody to talk to before. Since I'm not used to it, it doesnt come out very good.
My friends, except maybe a few, are really there to listen i think. Unless Im just lieing to myself V_V. If I am....oh well I'll discover the truth eventually.
I love to listen to people and whats on their mind because I feel that I can help them. If I can't help myself I might as well make somebody else smile a little, or let them get out all that they have been wanting say.
Okay pretty much Im a sack full of complaining, but thats because i don't do it very often or at all V_V....oh well....thanks for reading this far, but if you skimmed thats ok comment if you want i dont care smile its fun to type whats on my mind even though it doesnt help me think things are better, or make me think of ways it could be.
 Kuri Kawaii · Mon Aug 25, 2008 @ 02:10am · 1 Comments |
