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The Darkness That Consumes Me |
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I dont know why, but the saem time every day, I go all emo for a few minutes as I walk or I just think really weird things. Here is something I thought of today:
The Darkness
Why can’t I be happy? I mean, I’ve got more than a lot of people could even fathom having. My parents love me, I have friends, and I don’t have to wake up at 3:00 in the morning to start working in the fields. So, why do I keep wandering into this patch of darkness? The darkness that, out of no where, wraps it’s cold coils around me and hides me from the light. Blinds me and keeps me from ecstasy and love. I enjoy the light, the light with my friends and family. But, the darkness shadows me and won’t leave me until it completely suffocates me. I don’t understand it. And…I hate it. I hate the fact it hides me, hate the way it shrouds me. And yet, I still fall into it. Why? In the darkness, I’m alone. In the light, I am surrounded with loved ones. The darkness only fills me with sorrow, while the light fills me with bewilderment and joy. And whilst I hate the darkness that shrouds my heart…I keep straying my the light, the path of joy and saunter gradually into the sorrow. I can’t keep away. But…should I embrace the darkness? Though I hate the loneliness and loathe the pain, I like the solitude at times. I like the quiet, the fact I can’t see anything, where no one can get me. Completely safe. I even neglect the hands trying to free me from the pitch black pit I’ve fallen into. Declined the passage towards the loving embrace of warmth. At times, when I’m in that dark space, I even want to join it. Want to drown in it’s ice-cold embrace. When life becomes difficult, is when I wish for this most. Wish the darkness could grab me and tighten itself around me until…
When I do, though, I’m saved by the light. Whether it’s my friends offering me comfort at “homes away from home” or my mom offering to lend an ear, they save me from complete destruction. From completely breaking down. And for this, the light is my savior. I love the warmth it surrounds me with and even the slightest amount of comfort I receive from it. I just hope the darkness goes away before it consumes me entirely and the light leaves forever…
So....yeah....plz leave a comment! XD
 Katqueen2 · Sat May 10, 2008 @ 12:02am · 0 Comments |
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