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For some reason why,
I wish to cry
No one
Can know
Why i wish to go
-to Leave here.
But yet I fear
The numbness that Takes hold of me..
I havent felt much but yet I feel a need
To let my Sorrow
Dispurse Into nothing untill I feel it Tomarrow
Yet No one notices that Im dieing
Im gone for days Yet no one cares, leaving my Crying
On the Inside..
So once Again I wish to Say Goodbye
Yet I cant for I may Kill
Myself in my Confusion, So I grimace and Swallow this Pill
The Hated Medicine to make my Emotions Fade;
To erase all My feelings, Taking over Is Happiness Made
Fake
but I laugh in its face
Because it doesnt Help me Anymore
Soposed to make My Problems Fade but Sadness takes The Score
This time
So I cry
But Only on the Inside
yet by doing so Im slowly killing myself
Feeling nothing- Calling for help
Hoping that someone will Come
Putting my Ageny to an End
But Like Ive said
No one Seems to Notice nor Care
A life so cold and Boring Its just not fair
A life im so tired with.... So Bored with
Escaping it is just a Far away Myth
Like those told to Little Children before they Sleep at night
Metally Distable, Verge of a Break down Coming up to Fight
I dont know whats' What
so in atempt to Make Myself right, I take a Razor and I cut..
The Pain is a relief in some Sick way
It makes the numbness subside as Long as it May
And when it Fades I make my glance
To that razor Thats been a friend in the Past
I wince at what my Friends will say
But yet they Never ask if Im Okay
Or why I would want to Do that, Or the True
Reason why the Cuts are there: to show my sorrow to you
But they never ask or Care
They Just threaten me to Stop, not caring why, its not fair
Im screaming for Attention Silently, But here I am
wishing I was loved, but once Again
No one Notices
So my pain Focuses
Right in the Center of me
and it eats at my heart Slowly
Once more i find myself Looking down in my Hand
Holding that Pill, Knowing the Numbness it'll Bring, Making the Darkness Tanned
Even Darker
But whats the hope, My end coming Closer
No one Knows
No one Sees
No one watches as it Goes
No one Believes
No one has ever Shared
Their Love
No one has ever Cared...
I could be gone for weeks and Come back
And see no one has Noticed, and as a matter of fact
That makes me go a little Closer Towards the edge
Of confusing uncertaintee Of What I Pledge
to Do
After you
Make it seem like Im not worth the time
So I hide away in Sorrow and cry
But No one Ever follows after me
No one gives a enough hint of Intrest that I could Be
Worth living over the Night
That im worth the Fight
Or that I could soar like a Kite,
No one....
thats right, Like a Bad Punn...
....No one.