I know I've said I hate them both too much, but, how can I not?
I hate Tommy for letting us break up, and then getting his dad involved. And I hate him for never looking me straight in the eye when we passed in the hallway (not that I could either) I hate that he's made me so sad. I hate that I find myself loving him one day, and hating him the next. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! I can't stand it anymore.....For heavensake, I SENT AN E-MAIL TO HIM TELLING HIM I STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR HIM!!!!!I'm a moron....I'm the one who let us break up....I didn't believe him....it was all messed up.....
And I hate my dad for leaving. For never making any contact with me since my first b-day party, and I KNOW what y'all are gonna say, you're gonna say something like "if he left you, he was the stupid one..." or "you shouldn't think about him, just forget it" BECAUSE I CAN'T!!!HE'S MY FATHER FOR GODSAKE!!!!How can I NOT think about my own father who obviously doesn't love me?! I am so lost....and I just can't be found...
And now I can't even stop myself from crying hysterically........I'm in a fight with myself....and I wish I could say a lot of people cared..
 Day_dreamer_3173_ · Thu Jun 23, 2005 @ 06:19am · 4 Comments |
