well it's come to this... i'm finally 16, well, i don't feel any different. i dunno i guess i'm happy it's my bday but, it not the same. Not the same when like i was 11 or 13 when i'd get all ubber happy and run downstair and scream it's my bday and get all jumppy, see all the balloons and decoration, and see all the things ready for the party. i guess i miss being a kid, or being smaller, having everything so easy. not doing anything and just cuz it was your bday everyone would be extreamly nice to ya. last nite i got sad, and i can't believed i cryed myself to sleep... why do memories get in the way of your feelings.... why, i was remembering everything when i was 13, that was something i won't forget.... thinking about everything and why things happen. It just doesn't feel like my birthday, or i feel like i don't deserve a birthday. i wish today would just rot away.... i'm at home, bored, and need to get ready to go get a present that i don't deserve at the mall with my uncle... i don't need anything, i don't know wat's wrong with me... i'm helpless.... i just want to be loved.....?????
 surfer89 · Mon Jun 20, 2005 @ 08:36pm · 3 Comments |
