I doubt I have a meaning to life. The point of life is to return to heaven, which we all will, before we're damned to hell. Evewn the evil, like me, are brought to heaven to be tried, then it is decided what is to become of our spirits. This of course is religiuse and not everyone will agree with me, but this is what I believe. I doubt a lot, I'm told it's only natural. I doubt God, myself, and the love of my family and friends. I doubt myself most of all though. The only thing I don't doubt is God is there and loves us all. I just doubt that he should.
You are so loved, it is incomprehensible. I'm sorry this fourth of July weekend wasn't all it was cracked up to be. I wish we had the chance to spend some of that bonding time I know you like. Perhaps when I get back in the fall, we'll be able to make up for all that we missed.
Doubting is normal. I doubted so much when I was your age. To the point of severe depression. Not many know this. The only thing that held me through was learning more about Jesus Christ. Even in a world where not a single other person cared (or so I thought), He cares. I hope you can come to this realization as well. It is essential.
The meaning to life is not to be all depressed and angry. Your father in heaven does love you, and wishes for your happiness. The only challenge is for you to come to terms with that. You are not evil. Not by any means. Though you may feel disgusted with yourself at times (I do, anyway), you are still a child of your father in heaven. He loves you, and is waiting for the day that he can embrace you once more. I do not believe that we will be sent to Hell - unless we truly WANT to be.
I love you, little sister. I wish you to be happy. I'm sorry I'm not there for you. I really wish I could help you more than I have been. Some things, though, you've got to do for yourself. I'm sorry.
I love you. Know that. Know that God loves you, as well as Jesus Christ. You have been given the gift of the Holy Ghost. Cherish his company, always. He wants to dwell with you, if only you would let him. If you do that, then everything else in your life will fall into place. I wish this, and the best of all things for your future. I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.
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Memorable_Chic · Community Member · Mon Jul 04, 2005 @ 06:54am
Big sis, your mean. You made me cry. I am trying get a testimony, but it is harder then people make it sound. We'll see. heart Me!
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Exlla · Community Member · Thu Jul 07, 2005 @ 05:51am
ummm... hug?
I agree with most of that, except for the whole God thing. I am not entirely sure what God or the higher power is, and whether he/she/it loves us or merely needs us. He/she/it definitely shouldn't love the warmongering creatures humans are.
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the_tigerlily · Community Member · Sun Jul 10, 2005 @ 06:43am
As long as you're trying, that's all that matters, isn't it? No one can ask for more than your best. However, I really do wish for you to be happy.
TTYL rofl
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Memorable_Chic · Community Member · Sat Jul 16, 2005 @ 07:53am