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~Well, Here I am, just thinking again.~
Most of my thoughts posses me to write in my journals. I have so many it's hard to analyze it all. Most of my thoughts come when I'm walking in an empty field. I don't know what I might write, but please, let me know what you think I'm trying to say here:
The beauty of Life. So complex, yet difficult in it's on way. Life, is a mystery and until the day we die we will never know the meaning of it. When you sit and wonder, maybe even dream about higher things that you want to do. You wonder who made it possible, some take religions, and set it as their life. Devoted and Devoted. Not even making time for their children, only God. Why must all this conflict come against us? Why must we all have different beliefs? How do you know your not actually sinning? To the rules of God? How do you know life isn't a lie? What your living is fake, that your beliefs..in the end where worth nothing?
I'm I a disgrace for thinking these thoughts that posses my mind? I think not. Everyone,in their life has come around this. Even you. To betray, to sin. So easy. The consequences, however or not. God...why did he create us? Why are we here? Our purpose my seem simple. How can we live? Think about it, are we no different then a bundle of ants? Truly, different? We live like everything else. We have a job, the cycle keeps running. We work, eat, feed our children, and finish our lives until we die. Like a bundle of insects. We poison, we work for one person. We die, and we (humans) can determine the fate of a tiny ant. We can determine that we could squish them, or leave them be.
Most would chose to squish them. But in this deep thought, you wonder...does God know this? Does God feel this way? He loves all living things. Correct? So, does he make up all of our moves for us? Does, he control our minds, or life?
Then what's the point of being alive? How do you know there is an afterlife? Just because ghost exist? It would make sense, yes. How do we know that what creates these energy...isn't with-in our minds? Disagree with me, or agree. It all sums up the same answer.
I want to be who I am, and live as no one else. sometimes I wonder. Why God stays wherever he stays. Is he scared of what we have become? The created never hurt their creator. Right?
...Wrong. Mothers create babies, they grow into teenagers and eventually maybe even grow to hate who created them, their own mother. Even kill them, if I had a choice, I COULD kill my own mother. But my love for her is greater than most. So I wouldn't dare. Maybe God is a little afraid. Even strong, tough and powerful people get scared. Could God possibly show us himself? I would like to see him, one day in my life.
That would be ever so wonderful. I also wonder, if I will even make it to heaven.
the thought of Death has occurred to me. I'm afraid. Very afraid...But I have years to come before Death.
It's not the future that matters, it's RIGHT NOW.
No matter what happens. My faith will always remain, in my heart.
 Pain-Killer 4 Dead Angels · Sat Sep 01, 2007 @ 04:02am · 2 Comments |
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