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You must never see me cry
I must not show anger
Or hurt
I can not express myself through words alone
Why can't people see me?

There is a hole in my spirit
That blocks me from speaking
Filters everything
I can not get rid of it alone
Why can't people see me?

Half-blinded, I wander alone
Through the world of decisions
My own undecided
I can not go much further alone
Why can't people see me?

I try to keep going alone
The further I go, the hole grows
I can't go back
I can not keep this up alone
Why can't people see me?

Hurt, afraid, alone I stand
Among many I thrive, supported
They unknowingly help me
I can not keep lying to them
Why can't people see me?

Crying hurts me harder, doesn't heal me
Anger opens the wound wide
Seclusion covers the hole
I can not continue on alone
Why can't people see me?

You read my words
Call me exaggerator
Compare me to you
I am not you, I can not listen to this
Why can't people see me?

I care not for my life
I care too much about other people
Including what they say
I can not listen quietly much longer
Why can't they see me?

I run away from barbs
I try to escape the arrows
There is no escape
I can not shy away for long
Why can't they see me?

I have a face I cannot show
The people know the mask
Not I myself
I cannot keep it secured much longer
Why can't they see me?

I saw beyond the veil
That separation between your world
And theirs
I cannot fight the longing any more
Why can't they see me?

I will give this world a little while longer
Enough to end the pain
And I can go there
I can wait a little longer
Try to see me

Why can't you see me?