ive been told people dont like my journals. "its not katie" they said to me.. interesting cause well unless you have read this journal youll never really see the real me.. I looked up my entries recently and have notice 60 have read my last journal and only eight of those people left a comment of support for me. Thats kinda od for me.. (opps went off subject) Well as i was saying i live a lie just to please others.. im really very sad, depressed, i geuss you could say suicidal, looking for love that i didnt have when i was a child, etc.. a lot of bad things i am.. im really selfish too no matter what people say really.. see im always thinking about making others happy but that is for myself.. to know i do have a reason to live but this has been failing lately and all im noticing is that the ones i help come back and hurt me for no reason.. its really annoying to me cause well i cant go and talk to some one about it really.. they just tell me that the good get the bad.. but im not really good... im not.. *sighs* back to the whole issue of my journals being depressing.. hmm lets see well this is who i am.. if you notice it is depressing theres a reason for that.. its depressing cause thats how my life is.. My journal is called My life Inside And Out, it means inside this game and out of it.. its so people get to know me more.. My life is filled with problems all the time.. i cant really think of days it isnt..
People Who Say My Journal Is Depressing: Get use to it.. my life and i am depressing.. and you know i have only touched the skin of my problems within my journal.. im being nice enough to keep the bad stuff out for good reasons.
well im done now.. isnt as great as it usaully is but ohhh welll till next time
 Ishira Tsubasa · Mon Apr 11, 2005 @ 02:45pm · 3 Comments |
