• I remember every night I spent with you.
    My softness and fragility shocking in comparison to your hardness.
    Was I always too much for you to handle?
    You never wanted to feel like you did,
    never wanted to become the caretaker for such a weak girl,
    who was so caught up in the fantasy of unconditional love,
    she couldn't hear your footsteps fading behind her.
    I always thought you were right beside me,
    until I looked up bravely and saw you had disappeared.
    I tried to put on a happy face, I tried to be confident again,
    but the confidence was replaced with anxiety,
    the bravery replaced with tears.
    I cried a whole ocean for you, and gave it your name,
    and I still float listlessly along,
    searching, trying to find your smile.