• its so easy,

    so nice

    not to have a care in the world right?

    why do you do the things you do

    you gamble away our love for chicks and play



    were gone, so gone

    i can't even see the road im on

    is this what life is all about sitting in the passenger seat

    and crying about how bad you've hurt me



    you dont seem to notice me,

    you keep driving the same route using what you got

    im so lost i can't find my shadow anymore

    who am i besides your little toy

    is this who i am,

    sitting in the passenger seat crying out how bad you've hurt me



    you smile the old smile at me, the smile that locked me in

    my heart flutters my pulse quickens

    and you play your cards

    you dont look at me anymore, you look at your hands

    are they working with you or against you this time

    you frown and i know its my fault

    i brace myself for the end and wish with ease that i will be ended tonight

    for i cant stand being the disappointment



    my friends think i should leave you

    that was after they saw the bruises

    I told them it was mistake

    you didn't mean to



    you did though,

    you've been hurting me for years

    i am frightened of you, but i love you

    i can't leave you, you are everything

    i have you remind me every night without you i have nothing

    nothing is better then everything you've given me



    i can see your tense and feel bliss

    maybe, finally it will be enough

    i stand in the living room taking the pain

    welcoming the pain



    i am lying on the floor gasping for breath

    he is crumpled beside me crying

    i can not find any happy memories to die with

    the breath starts coming back in my body and

    i close my eyes and begin to cry

    i did not die