• it has been never been like this,
    not quite sure of what i want
    don’t know what more that i need to do,
    feels like a soul devoid of life;

    one moment my joy knew no bounds,
    a new beginning is what i got,
    a new meaning to a lonely existence,
    i was happy;

    as reality dawned on me,
    i felt my happiness come crashing down,
    all in one big thud, i wondered
    if my luck was anything but bad;

    i try to find a reason,
    i try to find a cure,
    i tried all that was possible,
    but it feels as if my life has come to a standstill;

    i don’t want to give up,
    i don’t want to cave in so easily,
    so i am desperately plotting my revenge
    against a life that has become mundane;
    (and take control of it once and for all
    before i lose my sanity and question my very existence)