• My precious Autumn,

    I know it was not up to you to stay with us,
    I know that it was God's will and you couldn't stop it.
    I also know that you know we love you,
    we only knew you for such a short time.
    We never got to see your little face,
    we never got to hold your little hand,
    I never got the chance to kiss your little nose,
    and you never grew to see the world.
    I could have given you so much.
    You were to come to a place filled with love.
    We awaited your arrival even though time was against us.
    Now we feel empty.
    You never came.
    You never made it.
    You went to heaven to wait for us.
    You went there because it was not your time to be here.
    I am angry, I am sad, I am so heartbroken.
    My child, you never were.
    I blame myself for not being ready.
    Why else would you not have come?
    Some things are just beyond our control.
    Some things are beyond our understanding.
    Although I cannot change what is done,
    I do need to accept it.
    You were not for me.
    You were meant to be a little angel.
    You are now the whisper in the wind,
    and I can hear you.
    You are the sizzle in the heat,
    and I can feel you.
    You are the laughter in a smile,
    and I imagine you.
    You are everything I longed to have,
    but didn't get.
    We will always remember you as our first angel.
    We will never forget you.
    Don't you forget us either.
    We will continue with our lives putting the pain behind us,
    but never putting you aside.
    We will always honor you, for you gave us such happiness.
    This is for you now, we will live for you, remembering you.
    We love you Autumn.
    We always will.

    With love,
    Mommy and Daddy