• close the door && close the blinds
    speaking in a hushed tone
    words fumble in the darkness
    her pleading eyes draw me in
    her screams && crieds are quieting
    the whole world is dying
    my whole world is dying
    is she even trying?
    why do i keep holding on?
    "turn away like nothing's wrong"

    she fidgets from nerves
    she's never kept a secret well
    i sit here, smiling 'i told you so'
    the both can go to hell
    you think this is funny?
    is this a joke?
    sneaking around behind my back?

    well, hon, i got a secret too
    he's a spy, a decoy, a friend
    you easy man-hunter
    i can't believe i trusted you again

    after four times you'd think i'd learn
    you haven't changed
    you'll never change
    i see i was just a game
    my heart is just a game

    i've let go of it all
    go have your fun
    maybe someday when you grow up
    if you grow up
    we'll try again


    but until then,
    i'm done
    we're done
    i'm sick of holding on.