• My mind consume by the vastness of eternity, leaving my body a numbing pain that will never end. Lost within the memories of the old days when brother was still alive and everything was better then it was now, consumed by hatred my heart turns to coal. Consumed by love for a world not even my own, sadden by the pain of those who are hurting within. Lost to the world who seeks my guidance and yet I cant even find my own way, Tempted by wickedness and be fallen a evil I no longer control. My eye's tell a story all of its own, but my face shows great sadness and pain that not even eternity can fix. Some where along the path to eternity I lost my soul and with it the ability to feel emotions. Fallen far from the reach of others, tear's of loneliness is all that I cry out, fighting for soming I no longer know if it is what I want or think. Hated by the world for the way I think, for the way I am, but yet loved for things I'm able to do, the things they wish they could do. Although my words and my life may be a joke to some or a hardy laugh to other, but to some my life may be the answer their looking for even perhaps my wisdom wont be forgot. Maybe that is the key to eternity our memoirs of old and new, and yet I stare into the face of eternity and laugh for I see myself starring back at me holding out my hand as if... As if I never left as if it was just a dream that I awaken from. I stand there in awe not knowing what to say or do, as I tell myself it isn't eternity that I seek it is those within it. I take a step back as I take a deep breath. As I begin to fall I look around me I see my friends and family their trying to reach out to me as tears of sadness falls from their eyes I cant help but cry for them for their tears are wasted on me, as I wipe a tear from my left eye I look within the tear. I see all the great times we had together all the smiles and laughs that we had and I smile, as I wipe a tear from my right eye I look within the tear. I see all the bad times we had together and all the sad times as well. I take a look at everyone I meant and grow up with over the years and I smile, as I say "Thank you. I will never forget." as the lights begin to dim all around me. My eyes grow heavy as they slowly begin to close and I begin to smile, "This my friends is only the beginning." as one last tear falls from my right eye. As I slip back into darkness, once more I dream once more again I start over.