• I stared at the sky, mind wandering, and watched the puffs of white slowly glide by. Leaning back, I let the wind flow through my hair and cool my warm skin as the sun beat down around me. The field of dreams was the best place I knew of to go and think about just everything, and I'm was there often. Today I was there trying to make a decision that would change my entire life and my perspective on the world.

    I thought of her...her brown eyes shining as she looked at me...i wondered if she was ok. She had left my house only a few days ago but my restrictions of talking to her made it difficult to know how she was doing at home. I knew her mother would be more than just upset and I wasn't sure how much of that anger would be taken out on her...and that scared the s**t out of me. I couldn't take the thought of her being hurt...and yet i hurt her myself. I'm such a hypocrite.

    Tears began to slide down my face as i remember the pain in her eyes when she found out my lie...I never saw her in so much pain. But my love for her was still so incredibly strong and i couldn't help but try to contact her in any way i could. So, in the days that passed after she left, I tried everything i could think of to try and talk to her...her mom, however, found every way to stop me. I wasn't sure what she really thought of me anymore, with her mother speaking for her all the time. Did she hate me? Or did she still, by some way of a miracle, love me? Only she could tell me and she couldn't speak to me.

    As i pondered these things, I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. Slowly, and without thinking, i pulled it out and clicked the "view" button. My heart jumped when i read the email text that was showing on my phone: "You there?..." It was her. I wiped away the tears and replied quickly: "Of course. I'm always here for you..."
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