• I sigh before letting out a long scream. Warm wet drops of water run down my face. I keep screaming, only pausing to take breaths. It’s finally out. The deep knot I try so hard to hide is out and that fake plastered smilie I put on is no more. The long days of doing simple mind things are over. I can't go back to that shell of a life I once had. I can't be that girl any more that similes at everything. I never was her she was never me. All she was, was a front I put up to stop the tears. I not afraid any more the tears will fall and the screams will chorus outwards as a thousand ring bells. I well be born a new, I not afraid any more to change. Next time when you see me smilie or take deep sighs it will be for me not for this messed up world.